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I haven’t been posting about my job hunt. It's difficult to talk about. I graduated In December of 2005 and I still haven’t found employment. Months ago I abandoned the idea that I had a 'field' of expertise that I might become employed in. My own evasiveness when people ask me what sort of job my degree is for, and research into the answer for that question has led me to believe that this degree is useless and I essentially spent four years learning nothing about a non-topic.

Right now I'm just trying to find anything I can get. I most recently, several minuets ago, filled out an application for a job at a local supermarket. I need anything I can get now that my student loans are coming due. I still can't find work. How am I going to hold on to a job when I find just the questions on the application draining and dehumanizing? This supermarket application I filled out had a personality test attached, just exactly the kind of unscientific bullshit you might find anywhere on the internet, only since it's on an application there was the looming threat that there are right and wrong answers. Naturally I couldn't be honest about my personality and still expect an interview, and I suppose that in retail the most important skill a person can have is suppressing and hiding their true personality.

Lots of applications have questions about your friends. Some want their phone numbers, some want little tidbits of information about their employment, like "Do you have any relatives or friends employed with our company or competitors" others want to know if your friends would call on you first if they needed help. I don’t have any friends so I have lie there too. The amount of difficulty I have with these applications and the attendant fantasizing about how I could perform in the job I chose to apply to has me thinking that I really aught to see mental health professionals to have anti-social tendencies diagnosed as something, but I have no health insurance. The sort of jobs that I'm nominally qualified for don't offer health insurance, either.

I’ve been on two different job interviews in all these months and never got a call back. The first place I interviewed with is still running the ad for the job I interviewed for. I e-mailed them about that, saying I was still interested, but they sent no reply. A few of my applications have come back for the reason that I’ve been unemployed for too long for them to consider me as an applicant, if you can believe that. As a kid with no work experience and no personal skills I don’t think I really have much hope of even getting to the interview process. I send out a few applications a week, and I consider myself lucky when I’m even notified that I’ve been rejected.

Pauly Shore rolls over in his grave

Because in Arizona's arid climate structures can not be built more than 2 storys tall there is an ever increasing outward expansion of ubran centers. Tuscon and Phoenix are two different cities, about 116 miles away from one another, but by about 2010 they will form a giant urban ribbon across the wasteland. Roughly between the two cities is a thing called Biosphere 2. I took a field trip there in highschool, and its just about the coolest place in existance. Apparently it's been purchased by a private land developer and will be demolished for a planned community. I think I should start circulating a petition to make sure that any such planned community will have to exist almost entirly of dymaxion houses.